I want to remember today. I think I will return to it during my history as a day when God specifically spoke into my home and heart. On Sunday afternoon (yesterday), with much conflict of mind & spirit, I asked Ron to pray with me. We begged God to shine His light into some mysteries in our lives and the lives of our children. We are so limited. We only know what we know. But HE knows ALL things... and we've needed His knowledge and perspective.
At 6:30a.m. this morning I lay in bed before getting up for the day. I prayed and asked God "Am I really Yours? Why does it seem so hard to enter into conversation with You? I'm so weak in prayer. So easily distracted in my mind. I want to find my place at Your feet as Your child."
Later this morning before we left for preschool, I gathered my children together and we kneeled on our living room floor in the Presence of God to again beg for His help in each of our lives. 7 hours later I received a facebook message. Then I made a phone call. And another phone call. All of which I believe are specific answers to the questions we have been asking GOD. Only time will tell. This is the beginning of the process. But I will tell you... I DO believe that God is real. and speaking. and for me. I AM His child. He hears the cries of my heart. And He answers. Praise the Lord GOD Almighty!